I feel Sexy

My heart full of leaves. I was invited to do a piece at this Bed-In. I thought about the bedroom, and what that place means to me. It is a private space where I am able to indulge in slow and gentle ritual. I often allow myself to feel sexy when I am alone, but not in the "high heels, red lips, perky tit's way", but my way. Feeling sexy for me is about the decaying smell of leaves. It's about my own smell mixing with my environment. Breathing deep and feeling my belly rise with the moment I have inhaled. The day of the performance I went into a hammock down Old Cutler with my friend Mauricio Abascal. He wanted to film me and my presence in this hammock. I used the time to feel sexy and prepare for my performance later that evening. I collected dirt, leaves, smail shells, branches and vines in a bag as I gently moved about the hammock. My movement with and in this place filled my body with a feeling of ripeness and fertility. Once the evening came and it was time to perform, I brought my bag of nature with me to the event. I also brought my journal and an aloe leaf. I sat on the bed and explained my intention to share what makes me feel sexy. I laid down and did some breathing. I then got up, took of my shirt and cut the aloe leaf open. I began to break apart the insides with my fingers and then smear it all over my exposed skin. I smelled my hairy arm pits and then rubbed it into the soft hair. I then read a list out of my journal. Things that hurt me:




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I then began to take things out of the bag. I started gently and eventually began to empty the bag with quick excitement. Eventually dumping the contents onto my head, rubbing the dirt in and rolling around on the bed. Completely immersed in enjoying myself, I ended the piece by saying: "I fucking love nature" 1098382_310587259085302_886137507_n 1185022_310587125751982_1224675798_n 1185290_310587225751972_1076297607_n

Here is what the artist organizers had to say about the event:

Jacqueline Falcone and Guru Rugu's Bed-In and Breakfeast

Wednesday, August 14, 2013 — 8pm-1:59am

Streaming Live! http://youtu.be/A6UVBiYUOpA

Hosted by Guru Rugu and Jacqueline Falcone in Guru Rugu's bed at Cannonball 1035 N Miami Ave., Ste 301 Miami, FL 33136

Watch it live from 8pm to 1:59am at http://youtu.be/A6UVBiYUOpA! Visitors will be permitted on-set from 8pm through midnight!

To finish up Guru Rugu’s summer residency at Cannonball, he will team up for one final event with local artist and hospitality-expert, Jacqueline Falcone, to facilitate a BED-IN & BREAKFAST!

Hosted in Guru Rugu’s bed at the experimental meditation center of los angeles (currently centered at Cannonball), and broadcast live on Guru Rugu’s YouTube channel, the 5-hour and 59-minute event will feature cozy, therapeutic performances, panel discussions, music, and more from a variety of local Miami artists. Participants will include Cristy Almaida & Shaun Wright, Kevin Arrow, Jenna Balfe, Domingo Castillo, Christina Pettersson, Liz Ferrer, Amanda Sanfilippo & Cara Despain, Magnus Sigurdarson, and surprise guest appearances!


8:00 PM — Jacqueline & Guru Rugu 8:30 PM — Kevin Arrow 9:00 PM — Jacqueline & Guests — hospitality panel discussion 9:30 PM — Magnus Sigurdarson 10:00 PM — Amanda Sanfilippo & Cara Despain — Scat Bath 10:30 PM — Domingo Castillo — UNKNOWN 11:00 PM — Cristy Almaida & Shaun Wright — Phantasmagoria 11:30 PM — Jenna Balfe — I feel sexy 12:00 AM — Liz Ferrer — ni se 12:30 AM — Christina Pettersson 1:00 AM — SPECIAL GUESTS! 1:30 AM — Guru Rugu & friends — Foot Massage Cuddle Puddle Summit-a-thon

** A Letter from the Presenters **

Dear Friends,

In 2013, Guru Rugu and I were so naïve to think that doing the BED-IN & BREAKFAST would help change the world. Well, it could. But at the time, we didn't know.

It was good that we filmed it, though, and broadcast it live on YouTube. It will be a very long and powerful film someday. What we say then could have been said long ago, or even now.

In fact, there are things that we and our many Miami artist-friends will say in the film, which may give some encouragement and inspiration to the artists and activists of today. Good luck to us all. And bon appétit.

Let's remember WAR AND DINNER AND SUMMER AND RESIDENCIES IS OVER if we want it. It's up to us, and nobody else. Guru Rugu would have wanted to say that.

Love, Jacqueline & Guru Rugu Miami, FL August 2013


  Being/April 13,2013/A Night to Remember- Fundraiser for The Miami Performance Festival / A performance piece by Jenna Balfe in collaboration with Dylan Romer/Olivia Ramos/Ganesha Michael Shapiro/Misael Soto/Dhaliahah Daniel Koller/Jacqueline Falcone/Jean Crystal

Being, reflects upon the car accident I recently was in. Through the performance of this piece I confront my own sprit and being through the process of healing and learning from a serious trauma. In this space I learn the importance of meditation and focus- key tools to finding oneself in the present. The injury in I incurred is very real, and in order to go ahead with my plans I must submit to it and believe that I can heal myself. A human, a beautiful complex summation of energy, light.


 Click here to see a clip from Being

In the begining I confront a projected live image of myself, which is my essence. Olivia and Dylan act as conduits of my spirit via camera and projector. Eventually the projection is cast over me and I move toward the wall to explore my face. After this a video plays of  the pole I crashed into with a few different shots of me. The video is run through Time Piles which- an iphone video app by Dylan Romer, which distorts and layers the sequence of events- which I feel reflects the feeling of timelessness I encountered as I found myself thinking: “I think I am going to be okay” as I sped face first toward the pole. I fully realized that either that statement would be true, or those would be the last thoughts I had. I began to cry watching this video during the performance. After the video ended I continued to sit there without any projection on me. Next my friends came in. Prior to the perfromance, Jackie and Misael decided that they wanted to dress in accordance to their actual relationships to me. Jackie, my former roomate wore a nightgown and a robe, as much of our friendship was spent at home chilliing in our night clothes. Misael, my ex, felt that as much of our relationship was expreienced naked- in more ways than one and he wanted to be naked. Members of Company contributed in ways that were true to our practice during Company meet-ups and Bodymovement class: I gave everyone the invitation to listen to my body with their ears, Ganessha felt drawn to lean over me with his head to my center. He felt this was what he was drawn naturally to do. Dhaliahah said she would link into me, and held space moving seperatly from the group, moving intutivly guided by her own movement practice. Jean videoed the performance, giving her energy to the space being in the actual audience. They helped me up- walked me gently, lifted me onto Misaels naked back and finally moved me towards the edge of the space where they released me, standing on my own beyond the performance area. I turned to them with tears in my eyes, feeling their love for me in this actual narrative. I put my hand over my heart in gratitude and the piece ended. The audience as acted as witness, a concept I draw on from the practice of Authentic Movement creating a closed circuit of energy, a space for ritual narrative.

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